Forgiven & Loved Princess ❤

I know that when we ask, we will receive through faith in You. #tweegram (Taken with instagram)

And Pastor Ferdie started saying… “Do not quit even if you are so slow. Even though we are in pain, we do not have to quit. Pain cannot stop you. Pain is just a sign that there is something wrong, so pause and change strategy.”

I did not stop pursuing God. I know, I did not. But I know I was waiting for that moment that God would even show His face to me; I was waiting for the pastor’s talk that would really slap me on the face. Yes, slap. I was not satisfied on the weekly preaching that they have been delivering. I knew I wanted more. I had a lot of “I can do this without accountable people”, and “I wanted God to reveal His face NOW”. I demanded, I did. I was in deep pain. I felt so boxed on my own thinking. I recognized that I was broken. I wanted more of Him, and just less of me. I wanted Him to consume me.

Before the whole Wired experience, I kept praying to God - “Lord, mold me. Make me new. I want a new start”. While singing in my mind a few lines of the song Lord Of All - “Here I am, Lord, mold me. Here I am, Lord, use me. Here I am, Lord, send me for your glory”  - and How He Loves Us - “I don’t have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way”. Moreover, my girls and I had an overnight at Germaine’s place. By then, I had felt that it was sinking onto me that it is, indeed, the start of my whole Wired experience, and the speakers were Ate Germaine, and Ate Lynn. (Our manicure session turned out to be a mini-LG)  It was really amazing how God uses people to minister to you, and at times… rebuke you. Don’t get that wrong. When other people rebuke you, accept it wholeheartedly and don’t get discouraged. They are actually true enough and courageous enough to correct you. But then, I knew I wanted more. It was not enough. Actually, I did not even know what point I was missing. I felt so knowledgeable about His love for me. I felt troubled.

*insert drum rolls* This is it! My heart was jumping and leaping for joy. I was so excited for what God has prepared for me. I was looking forward. I knew that His plans will be so awesome. While at the bus, I was still praying - “Lord, create in me a new and pure heart. Help me to start anew”. 

ASDFGHJKLASDFGHJKLASDFGHJKL. ALAM MO YUNG FEELING NA FIRST DAY AT FIRST SESSION PALANG SOLD OUT KA NA. NA FEELING KO IF I’M GONNA CHOOSE, I WOULD JUST CHOOSE TO GIVE MY ALL TO GOD WITH NO HESITATIONS AND DOUBTS. Ptr Ryan just made me realize that it will never be about you as a leader, but it will always be for the followers of Christ. He bombarded with so much truths. He hammered it into my heart. It will never be about me. Slowly but surely, I felt restoration.

Psalm 51:12 - Restore to me the joy of your salvation,

and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.

God… just… revealed… and… refreshed me. Day 2 was more awesome. I know this would pierce my heart again. And guess what? It did!!! Hebrews 4:12 explains, “For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart”. Ms. Pinky just reminded me, “the needs are just the same”. Hindi naman nagbago yung needs nung noon at ngayon. Alam ko na naman yung convictions, standards and boundaries. Kaso nasa utak ko lang ata… But this pushed everything into my heart. Moreover, Pastor Jay reminded of my calling to make disciples, to put some extra patience and compassion and to take the humble side… always. Boom!! And having that worship that night, I felt that God is just with me - that He never left my side, that He was cleansing me, the He was mending my heart, that He is the same God, that He is my everlasting source. I’m telling you… I was never the same again after that encounter.

Day 3 was actually a surprise. I never thought that God would remind me to “forgive and forget”; To forgive then forget everything that had happened in the past. In this Earth, I am fatherless. But in his presence, I am not. I never knew that I was still keeping so much hatred. It was soooooo refreshing that I’ve released everything to God. I wanted this. I felt that it was just me and God that time. I felt that someone held my hand so tiiiight and feeling ko si God yun! Intense!

It was not just a slap. God attacked me, and I love it. It was about my heart - heart issues. At the end of the day, He questioned me… “Are you going to give your all or nothing”? I answered, “I surrender my all, Lord.” I feel like I’m a new creation again. I feel so attached to God. The bottomline is, love God and know Him and you will forever be satisfied, secured, and loved. The world will fail you, but God won’t.

Mark 28:30 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and

with all your soul and with all your mind and

with all your strength.

SO WIRED INTO HIS LOVE. SO GEARED UP, AND READY TO CONQUER THE WORLD. FASTEN YOUR SEATBELTS, BECAUSE THE WORD OF GOD WILL BE SPREADING SO FAST IN 3..2..1!!

To God be the glory.

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